Personal and narcissistic post

Hi this is me.

I posted a class schedule on FB and freaked out for a week or so about suddenly switching from Cognitive Science to Molecular Biology again. It may not have been for the best but I should take the chance anyway. Classes are killer and the ones I took last semester were supposed to weed me out, but somehow I’m back in again. Seems like some of my parents’ friends who frequent FB noticed and asked about my schedule and future in general. As well as former Berkeley student who straight up “Your schedule sucks” and new friend who said “you’re gonna die.” Time to prove them wrong, I guess, or horribly right.

Maybe I’ll confirm the research life isn’t for me, and that’s ok if I have my priorities elsewhere. I don’t have to define success by prestige. Still figuring things out like all the indecisive students. If anything, I need to leave the mindset that changing plans isn’t “giving up” or being “not good enough.” People just do different things and not everyone is made to absolutely adore doing research in a basement at 3 AM in the morning and failing to make a new discovery for the 17th time. Professors that give blunt advice still are very cool.

Realized today that my indecision sucks for clipping dog nails, driving successfully, and deciding what to major in. Hmm I’m kind of a mediocre person for that. At least college is a good way to acclimate people towards failing and dealing with the feeling of “you’re not all that” and feeling like 89% trash

Also felt hopeless about piano in the longest time which was quite scary because I was crippled today by the fact that my skills will just deteriorate from here on out. I’m not a special snowflake so leave it to the musical elitists to brag about their skills. Kind of like how kids used to claim I was good at smash but then everyone grew up and got more strategic and now my little brother kicks my butt all the time

Happy to be back in full force with the floor (they’re back!) I swear they feel like extended family that I never had and I appreciate them!

Someone I used to care about a lot is leaving for college and it strikes me as odd that I would be able to deal with it so easily. Talk to me two years ago and I would have been a complete wreck.

While I’m on break from summer school, I’m sleeping too much at home and running outside barefoot like a child because being an adult is absolutely terrifying.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m lost, and aware that there is so little a single person on this world can choose to do, but I’m not exactly ashamed. Just confused. And a little lonely but I’ll get used to that.

If you’ve gotten to the end of this post, congratulations ^__^ maybe this helped you get a better sense of what’s going on in my mind or maybe it inspired you? akay goodnight.


❝ It sounds like a cliche but I also learnt that you’re not going to fall for the right person until you really love yourself and feel good about how you are. ❞
August 19 201409·30 pm29,424 notes

It sounds like a cliche but I also learnt that you’re not going to fall for the right person until you really love yourself and feel good about how you are. ❞

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August 19 201407·53 am39,292 notes

officialbutts:

adolf-clitlor:

drakeamez:

awesomenerdyfangirl:

anonymous-dudette:

I’m glad that Ferguson is getting attention, seriously I am, but I haven’t seen ONE post about what is happening over seas. Not even one post about the pictures above. Children are being beheaded and dragged into the streets where they are then shot because their families are Christian. Women are being raped and murdered. Men are being murdered. PEOPLE are dying. It’s a Christian Holocaust. And I haven’t seen anything on Tumblr.

Why aren’t any of you furious about this?! Where’s the “social justice?” ISIS is murdering people who don’t convert to Islam (yes, I know they’re extremists and not all Muslims are like that. Save yourself the rant) but I really want to know why this hasn’t been given the attention it deserves.

Seriously, guys. This is really scary, and we need to raise attention for these people. They so desperately need our prayers and support.

This happening to christian KURDS and yezidis

There has also been over 100 girls under the age of 15 that have been raped by ISIS soldiers and have been forced into committing suicide. The Kurdish Christians and Yezedis that are on the run are begging for a quick death. The ISIS leader has threatened to ‘drown our enemies in their own blood’ which includes non-muslim Kurds, Americans and other countries that have offered to help stop this genocide. What the Kurds are going through is completely tragic, and they’ve already been through so much. So many Kurdish peshmerga have been slaughtered, this is going to turn out to be a total massacre….

Sources: (x) (x)

Yo so this is happening too and members my church have been raising awareness on Facebook but tru I haven’t seen this on Tumblr at all yet ;_;

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#ISIS   #signal boost   #idek  

The world is a mess

I know that this text post doesn’t change anything but I’m concerned for everyone suffering through injustice or grief right now, and too many people are ignorant.

I just want to have a completely adventurous, passionate, weird life.

August 18 201409·30 pm218,922 notes
Jeff Buckley, on moving to New York    (via terrible)

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#quote  

childhood friends

one of my close childhood friends is back visiting, which is cool because we tell each other specific stories that we wouldn’t have remembered otherwise and it’s like “oh, that’s where my childhood went.”

like the french vanilla story or the stupid podcast story or the christmas burrito story

The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence.

aroseforalice:

me and my friends
August 16 201409·30 pm21,970 notes

aroseforalice:

me and my friends

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August 16 201410·48 am137,840 notes

megaparsecs:

i just wanted to put this out there since im sure it’ll get written about differently tomorrow. 

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palyk:

chrischaractercollection:

reallylameblog:

martymcflyinthefuture:

Today is the day Marty McFly goes to the future!

Where is my hoverboard

I just have to reblog this because this is LITERALLY a once in a lifetime thing and I need it on my blog. 

Shoutouts to tumblr user martymcflyinthefuture for having a photoshopped pic for every day McFly goes into the future for almost a year now
One year of nothing but photoshopped pics of the same thing with different dates for ~10 months, and people STILL think they’re legit lmao
August 16 201410·47 am119,406 notes

palyk:

chrischaractercollection:

reallylameblog:

martymcflyinthefuture:

Today is the day Marty McFly goes to the future!

Where is my hoverboard

I just have to reblog this because this is LITERALLY a once in a lifetime thing and I need it on my blog. 

Shoutouts to tumblr user martymcflyinthefuture for having a photoshopped pic for every day McFly goes into the future for almost a year now

One year of nothing but photoshopped pics of the same thing with different dates for ~10 months, and people STILL think they’re legit lmao

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rainbowreverie21:

chickenyaoi:

America is some fucked up dystopian shit honestly like how are y’all even surviving? Paying for healthcare? $60,000 on tuition? POC getting shot in Wal-Marts? White men shooting up elementary schools? That’s terrifying I’m worried about all of you

America doesn’t seem that terribly horrible when you live here day to day and you’ve known nothing else but when somebody says something like this it fucks you up really good.

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acidics:

Man I will NEVER get tired of saying FUCK FOX NEWS
August 14 201410·13 pm35,840 notes

acidics:

Man I will NEVER get tired of saying FUCK FOX NEWS

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sitcorn:

hey remember that law i forget exactly how it goes but its something along the lines of ‘if you murder someone you go to jail’ whatever happened to that? is that still a thing

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